Total, 100% honesty with myself.

I am going to do something a little different this time around... I am going to post as if this was my journal. I have a few things I need to confront MYSELF about.... my "come to Jesus talk" with myself (as we would say growing up)... I've got a few things that need to be fixed, and the only way to accomplish that is by a little  alot of reflection, some sacrifice, and serious hard work and dedication. Enough is enough, no more. Tough love is sometimes the best love.. Breathe in..... breathe out.... lets go.

Dear Self,

Today you stooped back into some very very bad habits. It's time to confront yourself. Remember about two years ago when you literately ate ANYTHING you wanted, and how much sugar and sweets you ate? Remember how sad you were? You ate those things not because you were hungry but because you liked the way you felt after. Those 4 cupcakes were good today, but were they really that good? Remember how well you did once at cutting out sugar, and HOW GOOD YOU FELT when you did so?? Yeah yeah yeah, blame it on the fact that you have genetically inherited a gnarly sweet tooth.. you don't take responsibility that you really want that treat more than you want your dreams and goals... that's pretty sad. You know how to eat things in moderation, because YOU'VE DONE IT! You know what to do. But why don't you do it? What is holding you back? Honestly. What are you afraid of? Why do you make excuses? You can't live life in fear anymore. I know deep down, you're afraid of failing yourself, afraid of success. But why? don't you know that you're worth it? Surely you must, otherwise you would have never started in the first place. I don't want to be that unhappy again, and I CAN DO THIS. Sugar is an addiction, and I am addicted. Remember the time (two weeks ago actually) that you quit caffeine COLD TURKEY that you relied on so much? and was so tied down to that you didn't know if you could go a day without it?? YEAH.. YOU DID THAT. You did it then, you can do it again. You've already proved that to yourself. Take a look back at your life... you CAN do hard things. YOU CAN. You owe it to yourself Jessica, to follow through. To achieve your goals. You ARE worth it. You are better than your excuses, and you know that. Either you want it or you don't. So this week, do yourself a favor, and do this. No more sugar. Work hard this week. YOU DESERVE IT!!!!!!! You know WHO you are, and WHAT you are capable of, so make it happen!!!

Sincerely, Self

I am honestly sick and tired of being sick and tired. Today I realized how much better I could be doing. I know I can do it, but honestly lately, I have had ZERO drive. I've fallen out of a few habits, and I need to stop. or start? hahah! Guess what though? The beauty about life is that whenever you DECIDE that enough is enough, YOU are responsible for that change. This week, I am going sugar free. I know I can do it, yes it is going to be hard, but I can do hard things. I will be on vacation, but that is NO EXCUSE. remember, no excuses? So here we go.

This is my goal for this 'READY SET SUNDAY' for my goal setting.